BAGO

Sa umaga gigising ako, tutulala sa kung saan.
Maaalala ang mga bagay na patuloy na gumugulo sa aking isipan
Pero habang hawak ko ang tasa ng kapeng paulit-ulit kong hinahalikan
Napapaisip ako wala na bang bago?

Papasok ako sa eskwela at makakaharap ang titser kong walang kwenta
Pagtapos ay makakasama ang barkada
At tatambay kahit sa'n man mapunta
May babanat ng joke na hindi nakakatawa
At sabay-sabay hahalakhak ng walang kasawa-sawa
Pag wala nang mapag-usapan biglang magkakatinginan
At muling tatawa na parang walang katapusan

At pagtapos ng masayang araw uwi sa bahay
Balik sa dating buhay
Iisipin kung bakit may mga taong pilit na umeksena sa aking buhay
Aawayin ka dahil sa walang kakwenta-kwentang bagay
Kahit sinisigaw ng pagkatao kong wala akong pakelam sa kanila
May nasasabi pa rin ako sa mga bagay na pinagpipilitan nila
Wala na bang bago o sa knila dapat may magbago?
Pero naisip mo ba na nabuo ang sulating ito dahil sa pagkabagot ko?

(I made this when we visited on other church. The program started late so I write something about my current problem that day and also prayed for it.
I can t remember the exact date when I wrote this but this thingy was written at the back of my devotional notebook. As far as I can remember twas two years ago. :D)

Beautiful Savior

I woke up this morning with full of realization on what's happening in my life. While on my bed I was contemplating, I said that I want more of God in my life. This morning it seems like everything has changed, I know God has answered one of my prayers.. Our prayers rather. I've been struggling with one person that keeps on getting into my nerves though I really try to get close to her "again". Whenever I see this woman, I try not to remember the things he has done to me and the things that she continues to do. I don't have the right to judge her, God is not yet finished in her life. I spent nights and mornings seeking for God's wisdom and asking for great patience because everytime I'm getting ok with her she will again do things that she loves to do and hurting us so much. She became a burden to me, on my walk of faith. But as these things happening I can see how God is moving in my heart, always reminding me that I should fix my eyes on to God and only to Him the perfecter of our faith. I am really thankful that God is making something into my heart and it's really true that when we pray God doesn't always change the situation instead He change our attitude towards the situation. So blessed. I just hope and pray that God will continue to change me. There is nothing I want more than to know God more and more in my life. I'm in love with Him. My beautiful Saviour.